You know that distant feeling when you can’t behave like how you used to to your close friend because he’s attached.
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I really don’t fucking like it. I don’t fucking like being surrounded by judgmental people and it just gets me down and its not worth it. Why can’t people just don’t fucking care about how people look huh? People can don’t fucking bother about other things, so why can’t they fucking bother about our differences? Superficiality sucks. & superficial people suck.
Judging people without knowing their story and rubbing your perfection in their face don’t do no good. Its just a proclamation of what a DOUSCHEBAG you are. Insensitivity is your problem. YOU can’t sympathise nor empathise, so, fuck you. Because, I don’t need this. At all. So, you better all fucking fuck off cos you don’t know how it feels to be judged by fuckers who lack decency and sensitivity.
That’s all I hafta say.
Goodnight(;
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I just realised not many people follow me on tumblr, so I’m gonna say what I want to.
Its confusing, like my feelings. I want you, & then I feel like I don’t deserve you. Its not like I.haven’t tried to reach out, you just don’t reciprocate. & hopefully you don’t judge me in your mind. & its been a really long time from since & I don’t want it to go away. With you, or ATLEAST the hopeless scenes I create in my mind, make me feel different. But then again, your perfection makes me feel fucking shity and downtrodden. So, I shall just give up. I mean like, i guess the longer I stay in your life the bigger the apology I have to give to you. So, I’m sorry for not being skinny, I’m sorry for not being as perfect as you’d imagine someone to be, I’m sorry I’m such and I’m sorry I even bothered trying. I need to get this off my mind and if don’t, I might do something stupid to myself. I’ve gotten enough hospital tags and I’ve decided to let you go because you’re no good for me and I’m better than that. So, no. Goodbye. I’ve made decision and I’ve made my stand.
Oh god, I said it. Seems like I got it of my chest now.
Goodnight(;
